Messed Up Emotions

So sure i thought i was
So unsure i really was
The way i thought things would go
The way they fell apart

Happiness was all i felt
the moment your eyes laid upon me
So many emotions drawn out of them
So few that were exposed

A desire to connect
A desire to know more
A desire to be something more.

Now failure is all i feel
Stupidity is all i know
My lack of knowledge drags me down
down to the very cold floor.

Believing in something that wasn't there
Confusing days to come
What i feel no longer matters
To you I'm just another...

Another person to have come and gone
Not another glance will i see like the way i did before.
Believed that this would be the one
To bring out who i am.
Confused and lost more than i thought i could be
many days before

Making no sense to others,
None to myself
Feeling that all i need something more.
Knowing that is not the case
Hating what i know.
Discomfort is how i feel
Of what is to come,
Much is unknown.

These emotions are running
Gut wrenching sometimes
In desperate need of reassurance.

A glimpse of hope is what i need,
To find that one day,
In hope of being nothing more than purely exposed.