The Holidays

Christmas this time around i came to look at it differently. Before i just thought of it as good times with my family. A time of giving and receiving. But because I have become deeper in my faith i look at it in a new light. I mean because of this day I am saved and loved no matter what! It really hit me how much I need Him, how much everyone should have Him be a big part in their life.

Forever God is Faithful
Forever God is strong
Forever God is with us
Forever!

Another thing I realized is that no matter how my relationship with my Dad is that I will always have a father that i can count on. A father that doesnt judge me and forgives me at the times i feel the worst about what i have done. Thats somethin i have a hard time understanding. A few months ago i had the worst 2 weeks of my life. And because of what happened i havent been able to forgive someone. This person brings the worst out in me when i think about them. I know i should forgive them but how can i after what has happened? I never thought that this person would be have been and is capiable(sp) of what they did. It has not only affect me but another person who i deeply care about. Forgiveness is the last thing on my mind when it comes to this person. This person is an atheist. I just want to get this person out of my life and the life of my sister. But i cannot make this a reality. It's just a hope of mine. Maybe that isnt the Christian way but why do i have to forgive this person that has damaged so much? Maybe later on in life i will forgive this person but i cant right now at least.