Help
what i suppose to do? I cant handle this alone and what i've tired so far hasnt worked. i feel like crying myself to sleep. if i say anything she gets mad because she is very head-strong. when she drinks she is her worst enemy and she doesnt realise this. not only is it bad for her health it gets her into trouble with people she loves and even ones she doesnt. She puts down and makes a fool of herself. This is how my sister deals with her problems. I feel i need to stay to help her but i've lost ideas. Church "isnt her thing" and she has problems as it is. I need a intervention something to dramatically change her perspective on the way she leads her life. I feel helpless here. I know that i should pray more but its hard and i have asked many people to have her in their prayers. What more can i do?? What can i say? I feel soo bad for her. I keep positive when i am around her but what else can i do??
What should i do?
Why is it that people that are older seem to want to lead you down the same path they went down? Maybe they can relate to your situtation but isnt better sometimes just to make mistakes, experience it your own way? I know that when i have questions in my mind i go to God or someone close to me but how to say you dont want advise from someone that is older. Somethings that have started in my life lately have been b/c of someone saying something to me and in a way i feel mad at this person even though they have my best interests in mind. But to lead me on to think things about someone else isnt quite right. Well at least not at this certain time. But i seem to always wonder if im bein ignorant about it all. The advice that is.
Photography
This some of my digital work that i made when i was in a photography class in highschool. I love it sooo much!!! I expresses who i am. I love photoshop its sweet!~! At first wasn't like the idea of sitting at a computer in a photography class. I was all about the Black and White Photos. Who wouldnt be??? I could develop in the dark room my film and pics..plus there was tonin as well which is pretty much SWEEt! I sooo love photography and i will be takin some classes at the UofS in janurary!!
I think that this will be an awesome career for me but im still unsure if i will be able to tough it out b/c from what i have researched its hard to get noticed. But my cousin knows a guy who works for national geographics....in australia!! I've always wanted to go there and at the Uof S there is a program called study abroad and i could be sent to austraila to study photography...although i would like to go to Thialand i find it more interesting to find photos there. From what i have seen when my dad and step-mom went it was an awesome culture to learn about and not to sound cheesey but on America's Next Top Model, they went there and the photos that were taken were amazing and they went to a fish market area..lol.But really it was amazing...tons of bold colors and content in the background. I know that i wouldnt be able to get models or anything but the people there live sooo much different than us that it intreges me. Thialand is a place i want to see in my life time. To study there would be insane!!! But i dunno if i would have the guts to move there or austraila just b/c i love sooo many people here it would be hard for me to be song for 4 years.! It's definitly something i really ponder about when it comes to the sacrafaces i need to make in my life. Let me know what ya'll think!!
