Weird Morning!?!?!?!?

So this morning i had was really weird. I had woken up at 10 and decided to go back to bed. When i did so i had a dream. I only remember the last bit of it, but it went like this: Ashley, someother people (who i dont know who they were), and myself were playing baseball and Ashley was the pitch. A very good one i might add...lol. And then i was goin up to bat and i dont remember what happened in between that time and the tie i got the backseat of a truck. But i had severe back pains and i was screaming and crying (in the dream). I wokr up in the middle and i was lying on my stomache and i couldnt move! My back was in sooo much pain, in the same place as in the dream. My right should was also in a lot of pain and in my dream ashley hd been pitching with her right hand! I strated freaking out and calling for my mom but i could hear that she was outside shovelling the deck. Aftera minute or two the phone rang and my mom came inside to get it, so i started yelling, by this time i was in panic and crying uncontrolable. Now my mom didnt think much of it first because she was on the phone and i wsnt very loud. The person on the phone asked my mom if someone was in disstress and she said "oh its just tiffany"...lol. but after about 5- 10 mins she came downstair and realized what was going on. She had to help my move onto my back and help me to my feet. I went upstairs and then my mom's friend sallie came over. Her husband is a chiroprator(SP). Sallie phoned her husband's office but he wasnt in. I couldnt lift my arm very high but enough to do half the things i wanted to lol. I was hungry and so my mom, sallie and myself went to a restaurant by his office and by the time we were done he is was back. I went in and he did some pain adjustments to me and by the time we were through my shoulder felt much better and not so restricted. Although it wasnt the best visit because i found out that i have problems in my back, neck, shoulders and my alignment of my feet. I get the joy of going back tomorrow. But the rest of my day was much better. altough the snow sucked and i got stuck in it when i attempted to drive into the church parkin lot for loft today...but Travis was there to help and some random guy. Then i came home and had supper while watching Lost and Criminal Minds...some of the great shows on t.v. So that was my messed up day! Hope everyone else didnt break their backs tryin to get cars out of the snow:P

To what Point?

To what point should i wait? personaly i think i should just try my best to move on. It would be difficult but maybe the right thing to do? Right now i just dont feel like myself. Out of place. Have I ever really been honest with myself? For a while in high school i felt that i was fake to the people around me. Definetly because of peer pressure. I've done things that i never want to do again. I regret not making the right decisions. Being lost in the world of conforming. I am glad those things didnt ruin my life. In the past year i thought i had been finding myself. Being able to figure out my true feelings, but to what extent can I truly know how i feel? I feel sooo lost in this head. I can't seem to find the confidence i think i need. So really to what point should to hold on to something that may never be or maybe it shouldn't be?