Another Cry For Help

Ok so i've really had a crappy week. Most of who will read this will know exactly why. But another road block has come up. I finally got the courage to phone my dad in calgary and my mom. i phoned my dad and i think i might have made the mistake of agreeing to move to Calgary for a while. I'm kind of regreting it because now i want to tell him that i'm not goin to move there. But in some way i do want to move there. Jobs r starting at $10 and $15 an hour, which would be very helpful towards a car. But what i'm wondering is if that car would really be worth it??I've just began to make friends that mean an incredible deal to me. There's also the problem if i stay and get a job here then i wouldn't be able to spend christmas with my dad. I usualy spend a couple weeks with him every second year. I've tried talking to God but i cant get a clear answer. I feel he wants me to go on the next m:180 trip and i want to as well but that would mean i would be dissappointin my Dad, he wants me there asap. I feel too much pressure to go and i dont know if i should take that as a sign that i shouldnt go or that i should push myself to go. I know no one can tell me what i should do but I'm really just lookin for a sign on what i should do!